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Time For a Breather
Submitted by Jim K on Mon, 2009-05-18
18:20.
Hi all-
You may have noticed that I've been posting less, much more sporadically. The good news is that I've been busy in life and work, both signs of improved health for me, and realized I needed to devote more of my time to writing and business projects than to Cpnhelp participation. I'm grateful that the community here has enough range of experience to answer questions for new folks as they come up, so it really takes very little monitoring from me. I check in every couple of days when I'm not traveling (another sign of improvement is the ability to travel and work more), and generally still keep an eye on the place. Every now and then have my two-cents to offer. But I find that I have limited energy and focus, so if I'm putting it into Cpnhelp, I'm not seeing to my own directions. So expect to see me less about these pages, but know I'm still minding the store.
Checking in
Submitted by Jim K on Tue, 2011-03-22
22:17.
Hello to all here at Cpnhelp-
I have not updated in quite a long time, nor been in touch much with the site.
Life has been busy and good, and all the energy I have turned to living it, and
seeing to my career and personal development. Had to get off the intense focus
on illness and it's constant shadow. So a brief update.
Married my amor a year ago Valentine's Day! This was the culmination of a
number of years of long-distance relationship and a life before lived too much
alone. It's been a year of bliss and continuing. I am very grateful.
I've been doing a bit of writing again for my professional websites and blogs,
as well as to develop some book projects. It comes in fits and starts.
I have been doing more international travel, with my wife of course (!), for my
work. This has been very satisfying and rewarding, but also cumulatively
tiring. Leading me to the next point.
I took a 9-10 month break from the CAP, staying on azith and general
supplements as well as anti-candida maintenance. I was getting very little
reaction to pulses by that time, and wanted to have a lower profile during the
nesting period leading up to our wedding and forming a life together
thereafter. But... into last fall and winter I noticed a cumulative fatigue,
brain-fog and inflammatory reactions after exercise. I resisted the whole thing
for a while, but clearly the cryptic load was building up, along with it's
inflammatory process. I confirmed this by doing a pulse of Tini and had
stronger reactions than I liked. Damn!
Along the way discovered that my thyroid balance was way off, and that I have a
couple of methytlation defects that I'm working with. Taking time to get these
in order.
Back to the basics. Increasing thyroid meds. Taking 800mgs metafolin two to
three times a day (none of the reported detox reactions and little else
noticeable from this yet) I'm currently doing short 3-4 day pulses of Tini
until I run out, then will switch to metronidazole as my insurance doesn't
cover what it used to. I'm also working gradually up on monolaurin and a
biofilm protocol that Dr. Powell has found useful.
I'm sure a number here may find it disappointing or disheartening to hear that
the the founder of this site is not a paragon of health. But I've always been
clear here at Cpnhelp that this is not an easy treatment no guarantees, and
there are more factors going on then we really know. We gotta grow up.
Honestly, I hate having to re-up my enlistment in the CAP, though I'm
grateful for its help. Clearly, this stuff is not truly beatable for many of us
but, like many diseases, is at least controllable if we are not cavalier about
it. It's easy to get complacent, or just plain fucking tired of it being the
center of attention for so much of ones life. But still better than the
alternative, I must say. Just the fact that I could turn my attention to making
a new life says something about how much I had been able to recover from four+
years on the CAP. Of course, I must credit my lovely wife-- I know just
how lucky I am to have found such a generously understanding partner. Takes a
while in life to get some things right!
I've also been following closely the emerging XMRV related research. I
participated in one pilot study by Klein and Silverman at the Cleveland Clinic,
looking for the virus in the urological system. No virus found for me, but I
don't consider this to be definitive. They know so little about the conditions
for measuring it accurately. I've not sprung for the full testing from Utah, as
I think there's a lot shaking out right now and no standardization for it to
make sense. But I think the difficulties getting well from Cpn, the tendency
for many of us to have multiple infections, the other diseases that seem to
co-occur, all these point to a common or interacting factor that degrades
neuro-immune functioning, at least to me.
Rant coming: I'm absolutely apoplectic at the rank fraud, failure of public
duty, diversion of funds, slow down efforts and downright stupidity of the CDC
for 30 years in the US, and the equivalent in Great Britain. This has all come
more to light as the entrenched forces marshall against anything new that might
dethrone their dogma. That CFS/ME sufferers in UK are diagnosed with a mental
disorder (somataform) and therefore barred from physiological treatment, is a
crime.That many of us have already died from this and related diseases (go
ahead, look at the mortality figures for this diagnosis) while people
responsible for fostering research sat diddling their egos is worthy of public
flogging. Rant done.
I am guessing that I'll get a slew of responses to my catch-up. I can
promise that I'll be able to respond to you all.
Jim
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